Its been a long time I shouldn't have left you.....

Well...as the title states...it's been a long time...I did some catching up on old blogs...and I must admit interesting.........................................................

ON TO THA NEXT

Now its been almost two years since I've even made a conscious effort to blog about something of substance. I decided to touch on three topics that are relevant to my audience's life: Life, Love, and Knowledge

Let's face it...it's only gonna get harder....BUT thats only if you think and work harder. Am lazy I rather worker smarter...

Wanna get more money and still be full-time in school: get two or three easy jobs that are flexible duuuhhhh

Wanna be in-love without all the heartache and pain....LOVE YOU FIRST, then let him/her come your way...almost like a haphazard-stumble-across type thing.... I know it worked for me

Wanna learn more....to make more money....go to school....study things that are meaningful...don't just take that one-credit hour class just for the hell of it....try philosophy....

And BAM right there, I just touched on each topic....SMARTER not HARDER

Now for the details.....

After a MAJOR heartbreak....I bounced back....lemme tell you people...WORD OF THE WISE: No

one can hurt, change, or influence you unless you let them...AND THATS REAL!!

Religion to me has become quite ambiguous...the characteristics I look for in a denomination is one

where the people no me...personally....and hug me cause...they are simply "Happy to see you bay-bee"

exclaims a Mother of the church....

Love to me has become quite long-term oriented goal....and I found someone who brought me from

the dark of pain.....I know a lot of people who say all they run into are these decrepit "hoes" and they

gotta play captain save a hoe.....Here's what I think...1. you attract the wrong kind of people only b/c thats

your skewed perception...2. why you think you gotta play captain save hoe...that means you just as dumb

cause you are now enabling them and 3. takes one to know one.....lol just saying

Knowledge to me has become something more extensive...I perceived knowledge to be only ascribed to

school...and knowledge learned outside of that realm is common sense....not denying that detail...but

knowledge is everything from how you learned to take care of your hair...to the m theory!!! Criminal

Minds has become my nightly fix on knowledge, although twisted...it is soo deep and detail-oriented

that I tend to apply what I've learned from forensics, ballistics and behaviorial analysis to what I already know

and experience in my life.

Now that I've blogged a little...am gonna hit the books again...I'll be visiting soon...... ;)

AP

When You Grow Up

I grow up when I need to

I grow up when I heed to

I don't understand when can I walk in my shoes

Because everyone older seem to have issues

I try to be responsible

But of course, I thought I was too grown

So I fell back as much as possible

But now I am too old, so responsibility I must own

I sit here wondering

And then I continue pondering....

When am I going to grow up???

I am to me...but when will I to you?

I'm trying to be my own person and not get stuck

But once again apparently to you I am being untrue

Because I want to be independent

I think thats jus a hard pill to swallow for you

Sometimes you gotta let go and let God

But you have yet to let go anyone...so I should not find this odd!

I am trying to be the woman you raised me to be...

But how can I when around my neck you keep a tight leash...?

Now that I have severed it and set up my own shop

You become childish and selfish and your support just stop!

I don't understand whose the kid and whose the adult here...

But I do understand it isn't you, cause you are not being fair.

But its all good....this ain't Pokemon...I can't catch em all

I will let you alone....but I hope our relationship to the fire it will not fall!

AS REQUESTED!!!

I haven't been publishing but I have been writing....

L I F E ' S B R E A K T H R O U G H

So I believe I've figured it out!!!!

I've realized that life is all what you about.

And yes some strings and cables for clout

But you can't build bridges based on doubt

Yea, going to school and being a smart asshole

is all grand, getting a good job to repay loans tri-fold

is great...but really is that why were made?

I sit and ponder, like Pinky and the Brain

that the point being missed, is whats main.

That point you ask? I believe is revealed

once you unmask the B. S. that concealed

it. If you can transcend the earthly things

then God, that message He'll resend, or even I.M. 'ping'

But will you receive it? Cause your signal is weak.

to get past man's pride, you must have spiritual peak.

See God, He placed us here and surrounded us with trivial matters

Things that spoil us, beef us up like pork on silver platters.

But no, what its about is moving past YOU!

To see if maybe you can save a few.

The main point is to HELP THE NEXT...

Ok, now don't look so perplexed!

Its just the fact of living for others

that got you bothered.

But don't get your panties in a bunch!

This is your ULTIMATE func-

tion.

Ladies, are wives and mothers, the caregivers

Gentlemen, are husbands and fathers, the providers

Fulfill roles of sister, brother, son, and daughter

But the main thing is helping your sister, brother, wife, husband, father, mother, son and daughter not falter!

Ish gone piss you off, cause God made sure not to quip us with every single tool ready made

So the package is only effective when you manage to get creative.

The brains He gave us, can formulate master plans of movement

Something to spark improvement.

We're just lazy, cause it's easier to destroy a population,

you know, eliminate the problem

than to rebuild a nation,

you know, those issues, you solve 'em.

So the culmination of my opinion

is to stop being a human minion

And work to move everyone else forward

before yourself, become empowered

with being your brother or sister's keeper

and not a gold-digging selfish reward reaper.

Stepping My Game Up

I went to Morehouse college the other day and linked up with a close friend from high school. I use think talking to guys openly about things and not holding punches back was refreshing and mind-stimulating....BUT OH NO!!!! I hadn't seen ANYTHING yet!!!

I chatted with my hun...Jeffrey Williams...and I was LITERALLY at awe!!! And I decided that I had not been TRULY experiencing a MIND STIMULATING conversation.

I have never ran in to a young man or even had the pleasure of knowing one closely like him. He is BEYOND articulate, and can showcase him self with such tact and conviction, you'd be CRAZY not to consider ANY thought he has.

I have been following his blog http://ispybeanpies.blogspot.com/ (CHECK IT OUT!!!) And once again I am amazed at the intellect that this boy...WAIT!!! I mean MAN possesses!

He told me I need to start back writing/blogging more...I have just been soooo busy...sooo just wanted to ask....what are some things to talk about...I have been sooo out of touch...and find it more interesting to talk about what interests others.

The Frog Princess...Oops I mean The Princess AND the Frog

...but wait don't she get turned into a frog anyway?????

So ok...if you don't know by now....Disney is coming out with the FIRST BLACK PRINCESS (check out the trailer)...but wait!!! She ain't no princess...she is actually a damn chambermaid...tht I think was dressed up one night and mistaken for a princess by the frog prince.

Thats not it...MADDY, which was the original name...(now is Tianna) and is as Heidi Trotta, Disney's spokesperson states

"Princess Tiana will be a heroine in the great tradition of Disney’s rich animated fairy tale legacy, and all other characters and aspects of the story will be treated with the greatest respect and sensitivity."

I am actually quite happy, but i know people brought up the fact that, "yo, she's a chambermaid that wants to be a chef...where the princess title come from?" All I can say to that is to watch the movie coming out December 11th, 2009. "Jus in time fa Chris'mass yaw" lol (ok I'm a stop)

But no really, the racial discrepancies I have with the movie is one the dental plan....WHAT IS IT WITH HOLLYWOOD'S PERCEPTION OF BLACK PEOPLE AND TEETH??? Ok, check it out...see where I'm coming from.... remember Transformers two...(y'all know where I am headed with this)...yea who can ever forget them twins...you know with the (drum roll please) THE JACKED UP GRILL!!!!! Then they couldn't read on top of that.

Ok discrepancy #2: why is there jigging...now if you have ANY remote knowledge of African American history, you should be familiar with: the black minstrel...you know the black men (or sometimes even white men painted in black tar) with white faces painted on....and they do this type of tap dance, flailing leg monkey type dance...yea well thts jigging...and there are two black characters jigging in the movie trailer...now...my academic researcher came out to survey the issue, and it pointed out that maybe, just maybe...that is fact...and if we want to be represented CORRECTLY...why not be represented by facts??? Makes sense right...the thing that is getting to us...is the fact that those facts are the truth...and u kno what grandma dem say: The Truth Hurts!!!

check out the firefly's teeth: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rjtdl1a_Jqc

Is Holly wood trying to tell us something though? Yea, they are. They are telling us about our history through a Disney Tale representing the FIRST BLACK PRINCESS!!! I know it is like..."but why: the teeth, the jigging, New Orleans, the witch craft?" Well, guess what folks? That is life...that is our HISTORY. Back in the day they could not afford dental care... (though there is no excuse for a ROBOT with jacked up teeth...aren't they suppose to be better than human?? jus saying) ...Back in the day: they did jig....New Orleans along with SOuth Carolina, and Virginia, and Georgia was like a cesspool of the black populous. The witchcraft...when you think New Orleans...be honest what comes to mind??? Well, besides Katrina and Wayne....I think of them Bayous and then next is the voodoo/hoodoo that take place there....that is AFRICAN heritage passed on people...

William Blackburn, former columnist at The Charlotte Observer, voiced his criticism of another matter. He stated that the "story is set in New Orleans, the setting of one of the most devastating tragedies to beset a black community" and felt the choice of this setting was "insensitive."

Here's the official trailer: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O8N-kIiELUA&feature=channel

And that's all folks!!!!

It's Been A Long Time...I Shudn'ta Left You lol

Sooooo its been like months...this summer I been working my ass off as a full-time employee at the Airport...I am a wheelchair agent...help disabled passengers get to their flights. Now I am a part-time employee doing the same thing. I started school like 2 dys ago, and the wkend before that I had drill orientation for my Naval ROTC unit....which was harsh...but I got through it and I am stonger...cause it didn't kill me. I must get back in shape tho.

I'm at Georgia State Uni. now, and its cool....I think I'm a stay here....only cause I know I won't be happy AT ALL at Tech. Just gotta convince Daddy.

I am still working on my car, and I am looking into my own apartment...its called MetroPointe Lofts and its close to both State and Tech and if u work 20 hrs a wk your rent is free.

I was sad as hell about not being with CHris n Hay n Rhe...but its cool I got over it.

I started dating thiss 23 yr old he's really sweet and smart...I like it...I may keep him around.

Anyways thats all for now....I'm in Latin right now....

AP

Realizations

I realized the man who cared and loved me always was always infron of me...Love you daddy.

I want to work on a poem...but I've been sooo listless these days...bought sum vitamins for tht shaw...lol.

I had a lot of fun with my girls this weekend...HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELISA!!! I love her, truly...she's a little me, she's going to UGA...living in my first resident hall...thats my baby...anyways...gotta start budgeting man...this spending isn't working...i believe I am trying to shy away from it cause it really means growing up.

Ugh, oh and sometimes no answer is all the answer you need!!!

Listening to Ego Remix...LOVE IT!!!

xoxoxoxox AP xoxoxoxox