No solace for the wearisome

Ugh, I'm in history as we speak...and instead of typing notes my mind is bouncing all over the place about what my next move is.

Apparently, my NROTC scholarship didn't tell me had to apply to the school of my choice in the first place...they were soo vague on the instructions...is this how its gonna be at boot camp...or for the next couple of years in the military???

Feelings starting to get deeper...need to let it go...cause I have no time for feelings....love just don't live here no mo' lol....i'll work something out...

I need to figure out how this weekend is gonna work out....Lord knows my hearts wishes

Now I have to go apply to GA TECH...I hope I get in...I am actually VERY nervous...my first semester wasn't that great....I regret my first semester matter of fact...this is def not gonna be easy...ugh...Its not that I can't do the application or pay for it...1) I miss the deadline for transfer application for the fall semester and 2) i'm scared of rejection....

I go soo much too plan...figure how I feel towards things (yes I think about how I feel consciously and cautiously)

I saw someone yesterday and it was awkward as fck...well not really lol...I was laughing at that person cause they looked stupid looking at me...ah well not my problem

I am afraid of change...I am ready for new things just not sure how to go about gettin to it...i have no one on my back...anymore...Daddy has finally given me my independence...I kinda want him to take it back and take me back under his wings...cause his little peanut is scared!!!! =\

I really would like a hug from my bestie...or anyone...but they are not here....=(

I noticed jus how inconsiderate really are...but the thing is they have no clue...or they do and are cunningly aware of this....hmmmm

I look back on my past and wish certain ppl weren't apart of it...I cringe every time I think of you being in my past...I'm disgusted....*proceeds to puke lol

I digress...gotta get back on this grind...things happen for a reason i guess...I jus gotta do what i gotta....to keep it moving