Thursday, May 28, 2009

It Just Came To Me Like An Epiphany

I'm loving Chrisette Michele's song "Epiphany (I'm Leaving)"

I feel her...and the guy co-starring in her video (Drake) lol

Anyway...someone asked me to help them b/c they don't know how to deal with other peoples emotions....and I realized....hmmm....I don't know either...I just think I can tolerate it really well....I also know enough advice, and have played involuntary counselor far too many times to the point that I feel I have an answer for everything. 

I DO KNOW...I can't deal with my own emotions though...I believe I abhor dealing with them....I'd rather just detach myself from the situation. It's less painful...well for me. I now realized what I was doing to other people....

And it came to me like an epiphany...........

Karma is paying me a visit....hmmm...I was wondering when it'll come back around for me...

Oh well....it can visit...because it's teaching me alot. I EMBRACE karma!!!

I thought that me stepping out my comfort zone and placing my cards on the table was not a good move...should have stayed behind my lil levees...so to avoid drowning in too many emotions. But in actuality...it was the best thing I could have ever done for myself. Though my heart felt trampled on through out the process. 

WHY? Well, it makes me stronger...gave me more humility. You are weaker when you don't experience some hurt, pain, regret, neglect, and rejection. You build up immunity from these experiences...so you are stronger in the long run...it makes you a better person: more compassionate, more considerate, more appreciative...overall, ust more humble. Negative attributes however are: becoming more wary, more cautious, more shy....somewhat paranoid or suspicious. Hopefully, you get the more subtle trait of those negative things.

Well thats my Epiphany...It came to me Tuesday night. 

xoxoxox AP xoxoxox

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