Have you ever stood on an escalator and watch people pass you, but you are stuck where you are?
I guess I been working at the airport to long...I feel like this job is consuming my life b/c I am not healthy enough...I am soooo exhausted when I get home...or maybe b/c I have nothing to look forward to when I come home...
I forgot how easy it was to talk to my first love...he has really been there for me thru sum hard times.
I feel if I reverse back into Nigga Mentality...I would lose out...what is this feeling of being afraid that you'll miss out...tho you seeing all the signs that you ought to let go????
Hmmm....well yea....I got accepted into GA State...I wanna stay there for a yr...but my dad wants me to stay for only a semester and transfer to GA Tech....oh well...idk how to break that to him...I will wait till he gets me my car...then lol...umm can't get the phone I want...so pissed bout tht...I can't get on to limewire to get back my drake...pissed bout tht too lol, ummm wat else???? I miss this guy but idk if he really misses me...he acts like he could be thoughtful and really good with communication (unlike some ppl I kno) but then....i gotta let him go...cause he is going to be consumed by another force that I can't handle....
I was thinking the other day...I want to dress nicely and go out with a nice guy...why can't I get a date??? lol...I want a relationship now...but I feel like everytime I pursue one...or think one is in the making...the direction suddenly shifts to where I can see plainly that...no, not this time...Idk...i use to have the knack for bringing guys to their knees...but I feel like I am getting too mature....and I am beginning to lose said flair....idk...ugh w/e man...maybe it's just not my time...just pray, work, make money, and get thru this summer...establish myself i guess...
xoxoxoxox AP xoxoxoxox
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