MY DOUBLE CONSCIOUSNESS

I understand I am human
I make mistakes...I will apologize
if you tell me...show me
but don't be condescending about it...
I AM VERY PROUD and MY EGO is...tooo big, too wide, too strong
I don't mind if you tell me "Hey Ashly...look such and such, could you not do tht"or "u can do tht better"
People who I have trusted to lead me down the right path, or hold my feelings in consideration are the main ones that do the WORST....
I kno for a fact I hate say I'm sorry, but when I know I was wrong whether or not I was intentionally being a bitch or not...I know I gotta do the right thing...And of course I ain't gonna like that shit...but I do it...b/c I kno how much what ever it is meant a lot to you...

When Ashly Paul stops caring bout people...trust and believe they'll feel it.

I love and care for almost anyone, as long as you give me my space, and don't think you better than me because you think you always on my good side.

I am def. not good with communication but if I can tell you ain't talkin to me enuf...then something is wrong.

I will put out as much as you give me.

I don't need your money, never did never will. I can't do my shit on my own. No matter how much I kno I need help...once again pride gets the best of me.

And don't go behind my back to discuss our situations ALL the damn time...come to me at some point I'm here I care too. Then turn around and act like I am suppose to know wat the hell on your mind

I have nigga mentality...so whateva you thinking now...I been thought of. I am ALWAYS ahead....why? Because when you stay back you get trodded on an left back

but i digress and i have moved on...u trust no one except u w/ matters of the heart.